I blame nights.
I'm currently on an emotional swing. One second I'm ok (high is a little much to say at this point) and the next I'm low. By low, I mean crying before my shift because of general exhaustion and discouragement.
To those that have to deal with me at the lows, I'm sorry.
To those (mostly same people) who deal with me when I'm ok...it's only a matter of time.
But! Despite all my crazy and instability and random ranting (again, I'm sorry) and general pessimism, one thing I know.
This isn't forever. And it's not even what defines me, right now, in this moment of life that's weird.
What defines me is that I'm His, chosen, loved. He makes me ok, even when I don't feel like it.
So, for those who are having to deal with the crazy, remind me that I actually believe this.
For those who are seeing the negative and angry come out, I really do believe this.
For me, when I read this later: it's true. It's true. It's true!
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