Fighting

Today, I'm fighting back. 

I've been trying to fight back now, but today, I'm aware and have my fists up.

Holidays are awesome. They're a time to spend with family, friends, old and new, and a time for reflection over the past year and all other years. They really are great.

Unfortunately, I think many of us end up reflecting not only on the grace of the past, but also on our failures and disappointments. It's natural. And not necessarily bad. I've learned a lot from my failures.

It's the disappointments that will get you.

I talk a lot about this, probably because it feels so fresh and real. It's where I am, and that's ok.

It's hard for me to not look back and ask why is this where I am? Why is this my life? What did I do wrong?

Let's be blunt: why am I still single?

I've done pretty well this holiday season (ok, we're only a couple days in. This is good for me.) But today is just a little harder. But, by God's grace, He's showing me my idol faster.

So, today I fight back. The lies have never had power over me, not really. Only power I've given them. Today, I am actively choosing not to believe them. It's noon, and the day is long. But I'll keep fighting. Because it's worth it. I'll fix my eyes on Him today. And the next day, and the next day, and the next....

Even if I get what I want, there will always be something else yelling "Look over here! Aren't I awesome?!" And maybe it will be. But it's not Him, so it's not worth focusing on.

Ramblings from a fighting, thankful soul.

So, happy Thanksgiving. I'll be here, fighting against lies, fighting for joy. He is faithful.

But as for you, O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses. I charge you in the presence of God, who gives life to all things, and of Christ Jesus, who in his testimony before Pontius Pilate made the good confession, to keep the commandment unstained and free from reproach until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ, which he will display at the proper time—he who is the blessed and only Sovereign, the King of kings and Lord of lords, who alone has immortality, who dwells in unapproachable light, whom no one has ever seen or can see. To him be honor and eternal dominion. Amen. 

1 Timothy 6:11-16