Success

I wouldn't have chosen my life to be this way. I would never have thought, even 5 years ago, that this would be how I would live. "Successful" was never even a word I valued much, since the kind of success people usually mean when they say that word is not how I measured success

A single woman at 25, almost 26, with a full time job as a nurse, owning her own home and financially stable. 

That is what people mean when they say "successful." That's me. Weird.

This is not how I would have planned my life. I would have a husband, a house, children, and maybe even a dog (but probably a cat). I would not work outside my home. I wouldn't sleep during the day and stay up all night. 

But here I am.

Not every day is easy to live this "successful" life. It's a struggle and it's a pain.

But I find comfort. Not in my successes...oh no, comfort can never be found in money, a job, a house, or financial stability. I find comfort in the fact that He, who created me, knows me, loved me all the way to hell and back, and prepares a new home for me, also knows my life. He knew where I would be and all of the "success" that He would grant. And better still, He knows all of my future, as well. I am not left with empty "successes." I am left with a holy God, who orchestrates my life according to His will. 

May His name be praised.